It is coming on to a year when Lauren Scruggs life changed dramatically.
And the model and blogger is slowly, slowly coming to grips with the accident which saw her lose her left eye and hand on Dec. 3.
The fashion blogger is now revealing to Natalie Morales about the first time she looked in the mirror following the ordeal.
“I think I just saw the reality of what had happened,’’ Scruggs said. “I had my eye patch on, I didn’t have my hand, half my head was shaved. I was just thinking, ‘Wow.’ Again, how life can change in an instant and how that’s not the way I have looked in the past.’’
Morales’s full interview with Scruggs in her Dallas home will air on “Dateline” NBC Friday at 10 p.m. as she discusses the night of her accident, her recovery and her book, “Still Lolo: A Spinning Propeller, a Horrific Accident, and a Family’s Journey of Hope.”
The 24-year-old also goes on to reveal that she sometimes still doesn’t believe it happened.
“Sometimes I think I would just wake up and think, ‘Did this really happen?”’ she said. “I would think I had dreamt about losing my hand or something, and I’d wake up and it wasn’t there. The doctors even told me that losing a hand is like losing a family member or a sister, because it’s part of you, and (I) still have those moments today.”
And she admits, she still has her tough days.
“For sure, just because it’s a part of my everyday life and a lot of days are wonderful, and a lot of days…kind of things will hit me,” she said.
But she can no longer torture herself by asking the question “what if”.
“No, I don’t really let myself go to the ‘what if’ questions, or, ‘why did this happen to me,”’ she said. “I don’t believe in that. I just have learned through reading the Bible and also just growing up as a Christian, I’ve realized that God will only put things in your life that he knows you can handle. So my life has just deepened, and I don’t think I would trade that.”
Watch the preview of her emotional interview here.