Desperately lonely, depressed and bullied mercilessly, Amanda Todd tried to reach out to others who had been the subject of harassment online and in real life.
On September 7, she posted a YouTube video, in which she detailed the extent of how much she was suffering at the hands of bullies, using card after card to reveal her heart wrenching journey so far.
“I’m struggling to stay in this world, because everything just touches me so deeply,” she wrote in the accompanying description below the clip.
“‘I’m doing this to be an inspiration and to show that I can be strong. I did things to myself to make pain go away, because I’d rather hurt myself then someone else.”
She added that she hope by revealing her deep-seed pain, others may relate.
“I hope I can show you guys that everyone has a story, and everyone’s future will be bright one day, you just gotta pull through. ”
Her final sentence?
“I’m still here aren’t I?”
On Wednesday night, Amanda finally caved in to the incessant bullies who berated her, and took her own life.
She was just 15.
The final straw was said to a topless photo she shared with someone in an Internet chatroom, then surfaced at school.
It was all too much.
And given what she had already been through in her young life, it didn’t come as surprised that she buckled under such extraordinary nastiness.
She had previously tried to kill herself by drinking bleach. She was rushed to hospital, survived to only then deal with a new onslaught of vicious behavior.
When her peers learned of her failed attempt, they mocked up pictures of bleach containers online, tagging Amanda in the photos.
“She should try a different bleach,” was one student’s vile remark on Facebook. “I hope she dies this time and isn’t so stupid.”
Now that she has passed away, her video is garnering the attention she hoped it would when she posted it– that of showing the world just how much pain and despair those who are bullied suffer.
The premier of British Columbia, Christy Clark said on Thursday: “No one deserves to be bullied. No one earns it. No one asks for it. It is not a rite of passage. Bullying has to stop. Every child has to feel safe at school.”
And Amanda’s mother is adamant that the clip will stay online in an effort to spread an anti-bullying message.
“I think the video should be shared and used as anti-bullying tool,” Carol Todd, mother of Amanda Todd, told The Vancouver Sun.
“That is what my daughter would have wanted,” she added.